Project.

Mr X: vanakam J. eh why u look so tired?

Ms Y: biasalah. malam jumaat kan busy.

me: busy? buat apa meh?

Ms Y: ye lah. dah nak minggu kan. ada lah project.

me: project apa?

Ms Y: project kat rumah. *sigh with a loop-sided smile*

Mr X: ooooooooh. hehehe.. no wonder.

me: hehehe(gelak tak ikhlas)

a few minutes later. in the lab.

me: eh, i didnt know Ms Y ada project.

L: project apa?

me: entah la. tadi dia kata kat Mr X dia ada project. dats why dia penat. tak tau lak org logistic ada project. renovate rumah kot.

L: ish! apahal nak cakap pasal project ni! geli!

me: nape nak geli?

L: project! (cross her fingers)

me: apasal nak goodluck goodluck ni? sepak kang.

L: Ya Allah. dia project ngan husband dia la. kat katil! paham????

me: Astaghfirullah.. L, kau gatal.

God, they're weird.

donkey ass time

my heart is struggling

my stomach is twisting inside out

my legs itching for a new land

my palms are sweaty

my mind is not focused

my soul feels trapped

my eyes hurt from restraining tears

i am craving

yearning

for excitement

for adrenaline

for adventure

for fun

for a set of keys to let all this out

i am not joking

i feel jittery

daring myself every now and then

i have been holding myself back from running around the plant

also from screaming at the top of my lungs until my guts spill

i want to break the alarm

i want to create chaos

i fucking need freedom

a dangerous wish

but i wonder it too sometimes

the mystical chain

i dont know who's da scriptwriter for How I Met Your Mother, but i tell you, he's very experienced.

i dont remember which episode and which season but i remember vaguely about Barney Stinson saying something about "the chain of apentah".

today is a hell of a day.
it started this morning.

a tanker came in and some procedures were supposed to be followed. someone had to tell her boss that some procedures were ignored by my friend who was in charge then. call dis someone J la.
so my friend, R, was screamed at, scolded, humiliated and accused for something she was not guilty of.
i found my friend here, crying in the back room, so i comforted her and tried to listen to her through her sobs.
then my boss cari dia. again she was attacked. this time, at least i was with her so i asked my boss to wait for her to calm down and dat he shouldnt pressure her just yet.
so then my friend took in a few big gulps of air and went into my boss's room where other bosses were waiting. to hear her side of the story.
so there. settled. it wasnt her fault, but J's. basically si J ni twisted R's words and told her boss, who then got angry at R, padahal si R did nothing wrong. there wasnt supposed to be any drama pun! tapi tu la..

the chain was on.
after my friend dah ok, i pulak tak ok.
some problems kat sana.
i wasnt emotionally stable la kot. i mean, i was angry at my boss ni for blindly blame my friend without having seen evidence or reason. i was angry at J for making up stories and causing all the unnecesary drama. i was sad for R who was victimised and confronted when it wasnt her fault.
then when my problem came. i wasnt feeling right. i was emotional. irrasional.
sampai a few ppl asked me if i was alright.
i didnt know it showed on my face. so i pushed it away and help around more. get distracted.

then my other friend,L, lak kena.
she was just kidding with another colleague, T.
so T ni was scolded by J i mentioned above.
when my friend was joking around with her, T took it to heart and blasted my friend off and left the lab immediately.
i kejar la T, and begged her to tell me wat she was angry about and why.
then T cakap la she was scolded and (also) victimised by J after the meeting with the bosses. so she wasnt in the right mood. after a lot of pujuking and convincing her that it was not anyone's fault and dat it was just not a good day for everyone, she calmed down and had no hard feelings for my friend,L, ni.

when i got back to the lab, i found L in tears.
she said she felt so bad but she didnt understand why T got offended.
so i explained. she's better now, thank God.

then dis J kan, she wont stop! she went to all the bosses, and bring this issue up when its not needed(ppl have work to do la pompuan) and she actually raised her voice to them! i tak tau la why she couldnt just stop trying to win over everyone and apologise.
huhhh...

now hopefully the chain stops, coz dammit, im tired.

stop chain, stop.

moral of this episode: dont start the chain. dont blindly accuse someone. find answers or solutions. dont create unnecesary drama. get to the bottom of the case. then take action. not by blaming.

peace.

my previous post was too merepek when i read it again. da hell was i thinking? missing my mole?
ehex..
anywhooos and whats,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERNIE!

just because u turned 22 earlier than most of us, doesnt mean dat ur old!
i wish i can celebrate ur birthday with u but apa kan daya.. pes got there first. haha!
miss u my babe!
miss our times together!
i miss u!!!

stay cute, hot, smart, beautiful, confident, nice, and everything dats good!
love u my ern burn!

want to see my weirdness??

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose six people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.
-lya tagged moi.

serious? u wanna know how weird i am?

1. i like to see ppl pick their nose. it reminds me of how normal i am.

2. i always look up at the night sky. coz i love the stars and the moon. they look like diamonds.

3. i always have da urge to kick ppl. not coz im angry. but just becoz.

4. i cant stop kacau-ing my nails. either i bite them off, or i kopek da top off with my available nails. faham ke? =P

5. i LOVE clark kent. and superman. LOVE. anyone who looks like clark or superman (just da hair would do too), i can trip and fall.

6. i am obsessed with Harry Potter. he changed my life! and becoz of him, i love the English accent.

7. i love immitating ppl or characters. dats why im like a cartoon or something..

8. i used to be a backstabber. AM NOT NOW! woohooo!!

9. i am super duper bekeng (garang in bahasa melayu). to a certain someone je la. =p

10. i am super duper uber annoying. do not test me.

11. i am scared of men. da totok looking ones.

12. i fart too. so if u wanna fart, be my guest! i like it when ppl tell me they wanna fart. makes me feel normal too.

13. im from SELANGOR. not KL. I do NOT like clubbing. i do not have sex. i dont drink. i am not a slut. i do not have strings of boyfriends. i dont smoke or do shisha. i am not rich. i am not an anak Dato' bawak Brabus hitam ngan sticker 'P'.

14. i like to see pretty girls. especially when they're not trying so hard.

15. i dont know how to wear make up.

16. i love my name.

that's it isnt it? i can write more. but cukup la tu kan? heheee..

i'll tag:
-ernie bernie coz she has a tambourine!
-adreen dreamy coz she's in utp!
-ninot coz she's da first of the '-ot'!
-paan coz he's got a cow!
-nana coz she got da answer correct!
-yana coz she's good at photo-editting!
-anyone coz u're worth it!