too pretty to be an engineer?

Lumut Industrial Park, 21 April 2009, Tuesday

i got my safety shoes on(which is as big as a boat. baling-kat-anjing-pasti-mati shoes, i call it), my so-called-bullet-proof-jacket and the safety helmet.
went to the yard where the modules of da offshore platform were installed and made.
men everywhere.
they literally stopped.
and gawk.
they freaking gawked at me!

i swear, it was da most painful walk i had ever had to endure.

on the platform, some men had their handphones out, it seemed. i didnt notice coz i was too busy checking da pipelines and the continuity lines.
and they bloody hell took pictures of me!

a fellow colleague came to me and said
"maria, kau ni.. too pretty to be an engineer la"
i was so surprised by dat random comment, i just stared at him.
my mind started reeling.
"wat da hell am i supposed to do then? quit? but im in my 3rd year already.. how am i supposed to pay petronas? will mom get mad? abah?? why am i too pretty to be an engineer? etc etc.."
and i tell you, that wasnt all.
my colleague also said i was distracting his workers.
and dat he's getting stressed out coz he feels he has to look after me and himself when working.

dammit.
im a freaking burden rupanya.

Lumut Industrial Park, 22 April 2009

i tried to act professional when i went onboard.
i had my serious face on, i was very independent and i moved swiftly between the pipes and oh! i got into a separator! i was inside the vessel!! i felt like crying due to overwhelming feeling of awesomeness(pelik kan?) and i was grinning like a stupid 5 year old after dat.
mistake.
the men could estimate my age after witnessing my reaction. they assumed i was 18 years old.
so my colleague came up to me and said
"maria, gambar kau dah org distribute dah kat sini"
i was angry of course, but he was laughing so i didnt know if i was supposed to take it as a compliment or complain about it.
i decided to let it go. if they liked a belacan-faced-rambut-messy-18 year old girl, then i hope u'll get a hell of a beating from your wives.
so now these questions still linger in my mind.

am i too pretty to be an engineer?
wat da hell am i supposed to do now?

you.

take care,

and dont ever forget about us.

uncle.. *sniff*

"
I am 68 years old. i look younger? hahaha!! thank you!
well, my wife past away 3 years ago in the hospital. sakit apa? oh, sakit kidney.

my kids?
oh i have 3 beautiful children.
2 girls, 1 boy. they're about your age lah! but my eldest daughter dah ada family la. she stays with her husband in UK.
hmm.. lagi dua tu, entah la. i also dont know. haha!!

oh, i was alone at home so i thought of coming to kl.
it has been years since i've come here and it's so different now! haha!!
tiba2 uncle nampak a new mall kat sini and more traffic lights!
and i just noticed how kids nowadays dress up like zaman2 uncle dulu. baru lah you all tau, org dulu ada CLASS! haha!

yeah, coming to Bangkok Jazz ni brings up some of my old memories.
my wife loved jazz. she always asked me to take her to saloma bistro. tapi tu la.. uncle pulak asyik busy ngan keje.. i used to pass Bangkok Jazz bila balik keje dulu. always wanted to take her here, but i never did it..

of course i miss her!
uncle kadang2 lupa dia dah takde! hahaha!!

ha ah. uncle datang saja2 je. kat rumah takde orang, dah bosan asyik tengok tv.
i miss being around people. so i thought, why not! so will this be a good show? haha! i'll buy one cd la ye. brape? RM15? murah nye! haha!

i know i will enjoy da show!
hahah!
ok ok, if i get tired, i'll excuse myself ye! hope your cousin dont mind.

thanx again!
"

-Hunny Madu's EP Launch, Bangkok Jazz.

i had the urge to hug him and cry when he told me this.
wouldnt you?

Jamiroquai, I still love u babe!

Yeah hey
Alright (right now)
We'll spend the night together
Wake up and live forever
Yeah hey
Alright (right now)
We'll spend the night together
Wake up and live forever

sighing is getting to me

i thought the series of unwanted and unlucky events ended,
but its still happening..

now i cant find my IC and license.
i've searched for it everywhere and traced back every memory of me taking them out of my purse.
it doesnt help dat my memory's not so powerful..

i find my optimism is really on low volume coz i cant hear any motivation or encouragement pushing me on.

where da hell are they.. UGH!

whoever's jinxing me, im sorry k. i didnt know i dah berdosa to u, so please, tell me wats ur problem and we'll settle dis..
take dis(bad luck) off of me!

*sob*

friday 13th? no no. Thursday 2nd.

you think friday the 13th is bad luck? nguahaha!

1. woke up in the morning, and had a cirit attack. causing my lateness to work.

2. had mom send me to the lrt station and in the lrt, i was harrassed. by a perut-buncit-muka-macam-bapak-orang-and-wearing-baju-kerja-asshole-and-following-me-everywhere-i-went-and-always-standing-directly-behind-me pervert and i couldnt push him away cos it was TOO PACKED and i was stupid. konon nya didnt want to make a scene while pushing my hips forward(to avoid his disgusting birdie), with my bag at my ass, and right elbow out into his disgusting stomach. it was really difficult balancing myself in that position.. sampai kebas kaki! i should've stand up for myself. tegur him or something(mom said to punch da guy next time) but its ok. lesson learned, there wont be a next time.

3. lunch time, at kfc, a guy dropped his pepsi on to my head. my hair wasnt dat soaked (thank God) and my ass was wet. nasib pakai sling bag. can hide da wetness. and no, i had no spare clothes and i was wearing my kebarung. my hair got sticky and keras even after i rinsed it. my colleagues were confused why i was so calm when it happened. entah. tak rasa cam nak marah da guy pun. it was his fault but it was an accident. so why should i sulk when i still have another half of the day? hehe..

i know it seems like i was having a bad day, but honestly, im not that affected.
it was disturbing being harrassed in the lrt, its an experience no woman wants to go through, but its a lesson. never forget your umbrella! weapon is a must in the lrt.

i guess its coz i have so much canned heat in my heels..
so im gonna dance my blues away tonite.

u know, u know this boogie, this boogie is for real,
got so much canned heat, canned heat in my heels.
wooo!