our baby Pumpkin

she died.
so young.
i miss her so much.
our baby.

wuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
sok sok sek sek
sob sob
snorts
huk huk
huhhhh..

safety first

haaahhhhhh..

it has been a hectic week. i have been standing a lot, walking up and down, office to office, sampai bontot sakit!
everytime i want to sit, surely an important person walks past la, calls me la suruh amik tu amik ni or ask questions which i can get fed up of answering, and macam macam la!
to these ppl, sitting down is 'not professional'. it potrays 'laziness' and 'takde-keje-ness'.
they like to see u all screwed up.
to them, dat means ur doing something other than nothing.

so yeah, i cant take my phone around. and yeah, i have to curi2 bukak gmail.
few times kena kantoi.. but nasib baik by the managers. not da CEOs.
and lately ni, memang they wont let me go until 8pm.

anyway.
tadi in the lab, i think i inhaled too much chloroform. it was after lunch. liza & rajes had their masks on, and i didnt. i didnt know what they were testing so i just sat next to them and observed.
they poured in the chloroform into the mixture. THEN it happened.
i rasa pening ngantuk cam nak pengsan.
my legs felt wobbly and when i stood straight, i felt very unstable. a whiff was all it took to make me feel dat. but takpe, i thought. lek luuuuu.
then it got worse.

i dah nak pengsan rasanya.
i went into the gc room to relax myself.
went online sat noh.

at 6pm tadi, i excused myself and went home. i told liza to tell my boss i wasnt feeling well. it was true la. my sight was in and out of focus! i dah cam nak mampus takut tebabas bila drive balik.

i felt like katak atas meja dalam bilik biology before kena bedah.
takut, but nak tido.

nasib baik after showering and drinking lots of h20, i felt better and normal again.

so conclusion nya rakan rakan,
pakai lah mask when u are using chloroform. or any chemicals for that matter.

ps: i lalok pening cam org gila, sampai i left my fly open. good thing my pants have dat excess material behind da zipper, if u know wat i mean. so nothing was exposed. liza & rajes wouldnt stop making fun of me when i told them. cried with joy they did. nasib diorg blanje sate haji samuri. tak terasa sgt..

TTFN!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

escapade

yesterday i jammed with my bro
today i jammed with my bandmates

i can feel my joints threatening to putus
but i can feel my limbs muscling up

i was surprised when my bro told me some ppl at lepaq cafe said i was good

i was?

i was being myself
when i messed up
i just stop
and laugh
then sambung

how was that good?

oh well.


drumster, i is.


++

boycott USA & Israel products.
no matter what religion u are or where u're from, u know what they did was disgustingly heartless.
dont be ignorant.
do what's right.

a small change can make a big difference.
start now.

Quiz

here's a quiz for you:
if you can answer this 1 question, a prize awaits!

if

positu = positive

negatu = negative

derivatu = derivative

then,
resu = ___

you may submit your answers at the comment box.

hint: imagine or remember our bloved lecturers i.e. faiz (DE), murugesan (Sepro), whichever lecturer from india la.

oh my shit.

few things happened dat i dont bother telling:

1. yes, i broke up with nik. dont worry about me, im fine. see--> =D

2. on new year's eve, one of the bosses asked me where i'll be celebrating new years'.
i said (with a poyo tone) "oh sir, im going to heritage row! join me there la! hehhee".
well he said "oh haha!"

rupanya dia betul2 pegi heritage row.

3. the HR manager rearranged the seating plan in the office. and she placed me in the same office as all the big bosses.
CEOs, COOs, and watnots.

awkward.

to end something

that has been great for so long

to see someone you love

get hurt so much

yet i did it

i chose

and it wasnt him

it was me.

i killed him, and i sat idly by.

allowing it to happen.

yet he thanked me.

after all the hurt i did on him.

the smiles and laughters we shared.

all will be placed in my memories.

all our sacrifices, hardships and all the misses

yes, i've said goodbye to that.

i said goodbye to him.

and it was the hardest decision of my life.

because once upon a time

i called him 'my life'.

he was me. mine.

and now

he's gone.



- i am guilty.

typical

i've always slept in class
lectures
tutorials

no matter where im seated, depan lecturer ke, depan cikgu ke,
i can still tersungguk cam org gila

but this,
THIS

i never thought could happen

saya, Maria Elena
tersungguk depan boss saya.
apabila dia sedang menerangkan bagaimana saya patut meng-edit format dan sebagainya.

sekian,
terima kasih.

kan dah malu..

cheers 2009

here's to the worst new years'

and the best fireworks show.