prego

assalamualaikum jamilah!


ok i feel like puking. thoughts racing like ferrari, hati pulsating like crazy - symptoms of blogging tanpa kisah.

i JUST posted a pic kat instagram iaitu:

ok no big deal. just telling people about the tudung. get it at qeesha.com, blablabla..

i'm the kind of instagrammer yang "touch and go" (not just instag, tapi twitter & facebook pun camtu dah).

i post a pic, and i go off. 

sometimes i read the comments, but often, i don't. coz when i do.. i always don't know what to reply to people.

anyway, back to the pic, it's nothing. just me posing macam pinggang patah. and so happen, i terbukak la part comments tu.

terkezut iolls tau.. 

why la. whyyyyy!?!?!

why must it always be "dah pregnant ke?" or questions and assumptions sewaktu dengannya?

i just like to pose macam pinggan patah.

ha kan dah.

pinggan lak patah.

malas nak edit. tapi rajin lak nak type lebih.

hahahaha!

emosi emosi =p

previously, ada gak picture yang dapat the same 'treatment'..

aiyoyo...

it's not that i don't want babies. i want kot!

just that no matter how many people tell us to try harder or whatever, rezeki is Allah's part. not mine.

we can only try but kalau Allah SWT tak rasa it's time, He won't give us a child.

whatever happens in my tummy is not something i can control.

i can't just snap my fingers and tadaaaa! ada baby dalam perut! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

wuuuu..

i can't.. and it won't happen that way..

saya percaya Allah Maha Mengetahui.

He is the Best of Planners anyway.

so bila i nampak sorang, dua, tiga, empat orang, astaghfirullahalazim.. tanya i pregnant ke or assuming i'm showing off a bump, (although i know they only mean well) it gives me a feeling yang.. tak best..

it makes me feel like.. ish susah lak nak describe feeling tu! 

oh well.. how would anyone like it when it happens to them..

i remember a friend of mine shared an article pasal cakap "cepat cepat dapat baby ya!" masa orang baru kahwin is not a good thing.

lupa article apa..

tapi now i understand why.

rezeki ialah hak Allah untuk beri atau ambil.

toksah la comment comment lagi pasal pregnancy. not just to me, but to anyone yang dah kahwin sama ada baru atau dah lama.

if, in sha Allah, Allah beri kita cahaya mata, i will tell. tapi in my own time la. mom and grandmothers tak suka kita share benda yang tak confirm kita dapat simpan (like a baby).

i hope this works in two ways.

i will try to stop posting pictures of me posing pinggang ke depan, and i hope orang orang yang baca ni boleh tahan diri dari tanya orang (me) yang baru or dah lama kahwin pasal baby.

sorry if i offended anyone..

salam.